How are your health metrics? Blood pressure, blood sugar, etc. Your mobility? These are what matter, and as I aged I stopped being able to get away with being fat. My metrics were always great until they weren’t. And all the body positivity in the world couldn’t fix my cholesterol.
In July 2024 I started using GLP-1s. And now, all the things I’ve always done actually work. Down 90 pounds, and able to wear pretty much anything, but I’m most happy about not having to carry nearly 100 pounds of weight 24/7. SO much easier to get in the floor and then get back up. Also all my metrics are great now.
And my relationship with food is healthy now. These meds have given sweets back to me, because now I barely think of food except at mealtime. I can have a cookie, enjoy it, and stop right there with one. That’s an amazing feeling.
I could have written this. I try and try to be ok with having a large body. I’m fit and strong, healthy too. I was shamed for my weight starting at age 8 and BMI believing doctors never fail to tell me of my failures. Even though I was winning my age group in triathlons or running half marathons in 1:45, with arthritis, mind you, I still felt bad about my weight. Even this week I had a tantrum after seeing myself in photos where I looked larger than I am. It’s ridiculous. I’ll just keep at it, chipping away at why I think I need to feel bad about a body that’s gotten me through a lot. I wrote about it in a few chapters that I’m posting twice a week on my substack. I do explore reasons why I am like this. Thank you for sharing your experience and keep on being your bad ass self!
I relate to your body journey! I also am in a bigger body since I stopped dieting almost 10 years ago. I so relate to not feeling fat but knowing people see me that way. Staying the same size for years and not having to "work at it" has been so liberating--even if most of society would be trying to be smaller than I am.
How are your health metrics? Blood pressure, blood sugar, etc. Your mobility? These are what matter, and as I aged I stopped being able to get away with being fat. My metrics were always great until they weren’t. And all the body positivity in the world couldn’t fix my cholesterol.
In July 2024 I started using GLP-1s. And now, all the things I’ve always done actually work. Down 90 pounds, and able to wear pretty much anything, but I’m most happy about not having to carry nearly 100 pounds of weight 24/7. SO much easier to get in the floor and then get back up. Also all my metrics are great now.
And my relationship with food is healthy now. These meds have given sweets back to me, because now I barely think of food except at mealtime. I can have a cookie, enjoy it, and stop right there with one. That’s an amazing feeling.
I could have written this. I try and try to be ok with having a large body. I’m fit and strong, healthy too. I was shamed for my weight starting at age 8 and BMI believing doctors never fail to tell me of my failures. Even though I was winning my age group in triathlons or running half marathons in 1:45, with arthritis, mind you, I still felt bad about my weight. Even this week I had a tantrum after seeing myself in photos where I looked larger than I am. It’s ridiculous. I’ll just keep at it, chipping away at why I think I need to feel bad about a body that’s gotten me through a lot. I wrote about it in a few chapters that I’m posting twice a week on my substack. I do explore reasons why I am like this. Thank you for sharing your experience and keep on being your bad ass self!
I relate to your body journey! I also am in a bigger body since I stopped dieting almost 10 years ago. I so relate to not feeling fat but knowing people see me that way. Staying the same size for years and not having to "work at it" has been so liberating--even if most of society would be trying to be smaller than I am.