Gaining skill in accessing our emotions is of vital importance. I think I have mentioned in your comments section in the past that I stopped drinking alcohol years ago. That was the relatively easy part, the recovery aspect - facing that which was causing me to numb in the first place and learning to allow for my feelings to arise without shoving them down by numbing with a glass of wine. That has been much harder but, like you, I am slowly getting better at it.
Gaining skill in accessing our emotions is of vital importance. I think I have mentioned in your comments section in the past that I stopped drinking alcohol years ago. That was the relatively easy part, the recovery aspect - facing that which was causing me to numb in the first place and learning to allow for my feelings to arise without shoving them down by numbing with a glass of wine. That has been much harder but, like you, I am slowly getting better at it.